Met An Accident

Today is the day wher eI will never forget in my entire life. Its not a day where I could fly or I had won a lottery but a day where I faced the most horrifying thing that could happen. I fell from my bicycle when i was going down hill. I flew out of the bicycle and entire body scratched on the road pulling the bicycle behind cause my leg was stuck on the tire. And at that moment I couldn't feel or remember anything. All i knew was a moment later my neighbor saw me and took me home. I was shaking and trembling. My parents were shocked when they saw me. i had wounds on my legs , shoulder, arms, palms and my FACE. After i saw my face in the mirror i was so scared.
I will post the pictures but for those who can't bare just skip this post.

I looked ugly very ugly I look like a freak. And at that moment i went into shock. My whole body was shaking , I will crying like mad I couldn't feel my arms. It was terrible. I cooled down after my mom calmed me down.
After taht she noticed i had a huge cut on my leg so we went to Pantai Hospital.
I had 2 stitches

It hurts so much.
And it costs RM800!
Now i am mentally very weak.
I look like a freak. i am ugly
Nobody wants me anymore

Sobzzz
I can't stop crying
I hope it will heal and not leave a scar
I am very very sad and scared now.

He Finally Speaks

Life is never how we expect it to be.Like you can never expect to win the lotery every time you place a bet or to get first in the exam because you had studied. As for my life , I always thought that I was ok with the way I am now. How wrong was I. Recently I have had this feeling that I am getting more and more criticisms or getting avoided. And who is it to blame?
ME
Some how during this few months the feeling of loneliness has gotten the better of me. And this has made me desperate. I dunno why but I am doing the things I never or seldom did before like asking for someones number or asking bout someone that I don't even know just to know that someone. And I am really ashamed of myself.
I would like to make an apology to everyone for being suck an*** . I am not perfect . I do make mistakes as I just did .If theres anything you don't like about me or think that I should change a few parts of my life. Please do tell me.
Save me from turning into someone that even I wouldn't recognize.
It took me alot of courage to write this out but I had to.