A Repeat of December 2007

Holidays...
Holidyas should be the time where everyone is happy, where friends come together and have fun. But for me, holidays isn't always the best time of the year. Every time during the holidays things that i thought would never happen will happen. The last holidays in December I thought it was gonna be very fun. But in the end someone that I thought that will always be there for me was never there. During this term, I had quarreled with my mom because of I couldn't control my emotions and i accidentally raised my voice. And before I could even enjoy the holidays a dark incident accrued.And now I have lost a friend cause of my stupidity. I admit, I may only dare to write stuff here but never dare to do it but what other choices do I have. I never had a someone that would relly really understand or listen to what I do. This blog is like my best friend. This is the only place where I can express my feelings. Thats the reason I started blogging.But in the near future I will try to think about what I wanna write before I write. Other than that I had lost a friend.at the end of the day, I think I am the one to be blamed. If I could just rewind time.....

Losing a friend is not something you can't get though easily. It is something I never managed to cope as everyone always told me, don't care what other people say, but I couldn't. I wish I could cope with it but I can't I just keep care about what people say and see what mess it got me into.And now I am getting emotional , a slightest thought of the mistakes I did can make me sob.

Well for the better of everyone I am now hoping that if anyone out there has anything to say about this blog, please say it out eve if its a criticism as I need to know what is wrong.